You are Not Alone

As I recover physically & Emotionally from a beyond traumatic miscarriage, pregnancy, delivery & recovery, I often feel like I am alone. I feel like I am the only one who has had hyperemesis, home care nurses, Medicine IV's, bed rest, preeclampsia, level 3 tearing, 2 blood transfusions, congestive heart failure, pulmonary failure, 1 1/2 year recovery, etc. that I can't talk with and relate with anyone and they won't understand my struggles.. It's easy to fall into the trap of feeling completely and utterly alone.

The truth is though, the more I share my story, the more I find women who have been through similar situations and sometimes worse and I realize I'm NOT alone!

I recently attended a wedding and I shared my story about Trust with the table after someone asked about his unique name. The woman (a friend) next to me began to open up about her traumatic, life threatening pregnancy/delivery and I realized we had a lot of similarities. She started to cry as she shared, the terror of the memories filling her countenance. She is someone I know and love but I had no idea what she went through!

Time and time again as I share my story about Trust I am amazed to see this openness happen. I realize that I am not alone in my struggles and that there are a lot of other women going through the same things.

If you are feeling similar to the way I feel at times, it's ok!! Healing is a process and we NEED to reach out to each other, to God and share our stories to help lift each other out of the trap of loneliness.

The WORSE thing you can do is sweep the hard things you've been through under a rug. When you suppress the trauma, sadness, grief, fear, anxiety, it will fester and you may become a ticking time bomb for an emotional break down.

Something that has helped me is professional Counseling through my Church. She helps me talk through and confront all of my fears and reminds me of the help that is offered through Jesus.

If you can't afford counseling, try to get into a support group, journal your thoughts, talk to a mentor or trusted friend and ask them to check in on you from time to time.

I was recently at the Beach for a week and it was wonderful! As I walked the beach in search of shells I was reminded of the cheesy, over used story about the Footprints in the Sand. It made me cry as I read it again and I put it below.

Footprints in the Sand- by Carolyn Joyce Carty
"One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand: one belonging
to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he
questioned the LORD about it:

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way.But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when
I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."


Just remember as you heal, You are Not Alone.