Gabrielle's Story

Gabrielle’s Story
Angie Diamond
We found out we were pregnant May 2007 with our 1st child. We were thrilled! We were not planning on having a child at this time, however God had a plan for us and we knew it was bigger than us. Kevin and I had been married for 4 years and our only concern was that I was not done with college yet. 

We were heading into our 12 week appointment and I really wanted to see our baby. We go to the doctor’s room and wait patiently. The nurse ended up telling us that our Doctor does not do ultrasounds this early. I was so upset because I really wanted to see our baby. The nurse came in and used a Doppler on us and sadly could not locate the heartbeat. She called in the doctor. It was not our normal doctor. She said we need to do an ultrasound on you. I did not know what was going on. Then the doctor said the following “Your baby does not look 12 weeks along.” We were like ok, maybe we were not that far along. “Then she said there is not heartbeat.“ We were thinking once again okay maybe the baby has not developmed and I was not as far as we thought I was. So we asked, what does that mean. The doctor said “Your baby is dead, you have miscarried.” I will never forget those harsh words. 

I had no cramping, no bleeding, no signs that I was miscarrying. I just didn’t understand why us, why no signs, what did I do wrong. I was devastated. I cried and cried and Kevin just held me and stayed strong for me. I could not go back to work. Kevin had to call all of our family and friends. I could not talk to anyone. I just felt like a failure. I felt so sad and all these what if’s ran through my head. I took three days off work and in that time I decided to get a D&C… I could not handle the thought of waiting for my baby to pass and actually seeing him. 

Kevin and I were going to the Vineyard at the time and we went to church that Sunday. I will never forget the first people we saw were the Kerry Davis and His wife. I wept to them and they prayed for us. During worship the song was “Blessed be the name of the Lord” – At the line

“You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name”

I just raised my hand worshiping and weeping and thinking through all the things that He has blessed me with and through all of this the Lord is good and has a plan for me. It is amazing how many women have the same story and shared it with me, some worse than mine… Some have lost multiple babies, some have lost babies farther along in their pregnancy, some still have not had any children, some are struggling with fertility issues and can’t get pregnant at all. 

My story gets way better. In July 2009 we found out we were pregnant again. I was super scared; I did not think I could go through another miscarriage. I waited until 12 weeks to have my 1st appt and I set myself up so I could be let down and would not let myself get too excited, we decided not to tell anyone. I knew God was in control; however I was not sure what His plan was for my life, which scared me. When we went to the appointment there was a heartbeat!!! I was so excited. We ended up renting a Doppler so I could hear my baby’s heartbeat as much as I wanted (this really put me at ease). March 2010, I gave birth to my beautiful, amazing son Preston Kevin Diamond. He is such a gift and there is never a day where I take him for granted, Kevin and I are truly blessed with an awesome baby. It is amazing being a mom and I know that through my tough times I have been able to witness to many women who have lost a baby and stand alongside them with hope and prayer. 

We named our baby that we lost, Gabrielle because he was an angel to us, we look forward in meeting him someday heaven.