I wasn't expecting to feel well enough to do anything, but got a shower & put on makeup for the 1st time in over 3 months to go to my Doctors appointment. I even wore real pants! 😄
At my doctors appointment we heard our sweet babes heart beat, beating strong and steady. My son Trust said "it sounds like a storm!" My doctor told me she could probably start seeing me every other week now since I am finally gaining some weight instead of losing and a little more stable. She also talked about weaning me off my pump in a few weeks which I told her scared me, but also was exciting at the same time. She said that fear is totally understandable with all I e been through. She also shared that in 4 weeks we get to do the ultrasound to check to see if the baby is developing normally and to find out if it's a boy or girl. I smiled really big because I've been counting down the days until we get to find out. You see, instead of feeling joy about pregnancy I've felt more like I am terminally ill. I think actually seeing our baby and putting a name to him/her will really make things seem more real. Trust thinks it's a girl and I'm thinking it's probably a boy, who knows! It's so fun!
After our appointment I still felt pretty good, so Brett suggested we go to Northstar (my all time favorite resturant) and celebrate! I told trust I wanted to go there earlier that morning and when we got to Northstar Trust said "Mommy you got your wish!" We sat outside to enjoy the weather as Me and Brett shared a chopped salad & trust devoured his kid budah bowl. I felt so happy to be out in the world. I told Brett it's been so long being out and about my senses felt overloaded! Every noise and smell and people moving was a lot for my hermit body to process. We took our time eating and I sat still, making sure none of what I just ate would come back up.
After we ate, Trust pointed over to Jeni's Icecream and said "mom! you got your wish, my wish is some Icecream!" I laughed and said "why not!" So Trust and Brett got some sorbet & ice cream as we sat outside again enjoying the beautiful weather.
We decided to try to go to Innis Woods (my favorite park!) because they have wheelchairs at the front so Brett could wheel me around. My sweet husband wheeled me around the entire park and I breathed deep and took in the beautiful fall scenery. I told Brett "I feel happy, like genuine happiness!" It was good medicine for the soul. Brett also snapped a few pics since he knows I love fall family photos, but we couldn't do it this year.
Later we went to my sisters house and met up with her and my parents and we ate potato soup & grilled cheese + cake! It was so nice to be present for the festivities instead of locked away in a room in silence.
I'm honestly not sure what happened yesterday. I'm pretty sure yesterday was my Birthday Present from God. It was such a happy birthday and I'm so glad to have the friends and family I have. I am feeling very grateful these days.
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